Crossroads

I'm at a crossroads, again.

 It's that point of time in my life again where I'm reevaluating my life decisions and deciding what to do next. Granted I made a bunch of hasty decisions last year that I may have been wrong. I promised myself that 2015 would be my year. Though at the moment, I've been spending my days at home, binge watching to tv series one after another.

Remember in my previous post, I mentioned about my horrible skin flare up. Well ever since I dropped everything in my life, it has gotten a lottt better. I almost have somewhat clear skin but of course with a lot of scars. I think 2014 hurt me a lot.

The part about dropping everything in my life, I literally did drop everything. I stopped going to work, no school, hardly got out of the house and spent most of my days in my living room. In a way, this helped with my acne situation, so that's great. I rarely ever wear makeup anymore. When I'm out, I'm usually out on errands & not meeting anyone anyway. So go ahead world & stare at my scarsss!

I'm now on a hunt for a full-time job. With zero work attendance, it meant little income. Anyway I'm going back to work this weekend. I know I could probably convert my current job to full-time but no, I can't imagine doing that on a full-time basis. It's not worth it. Today I sent out my resume to a bunch of companies, fingers crossed I'd get an interview or something. I feel unproductive while everyone else is out there slaying the world while here I am, just there.

Though I have some crazy plans for mid of this year which I hope would happen. The other plan was to start school in September. But it's a little 50-50. That is if I could get a scholarship or some sort of subsidy. & then there's another thing. The course I planed on taking up is Digital Media. I searched online for jobs related to my degree. There's almost none. Singapore's media industry is not ready for this media world. Very few job opportunities. Also if I were to score a job in this industry, chances are I'd probably be getting minimum wage. So, I don't know.

wellll, that's all I have to say about my life at the moment.

Hopefully I'd have better news on my next update.